sometimes

there are nights when I cannot concentrate
there are mornings that I dont want to wake up
I would just like to stay in my bed, eyes closed
and lay mindlessly, and not worry

I would like to relax and give my heart a break
To have one day, one day where everything could just be okay
So much in such a little time has changed

And I feel like I constantly say this
And I feel like I want to be
The girl that I use to be
So innocent and naive

I would like to play in the dirt
And color outside the lines
And have my daddy tuck me in to sleep

And I feel that I don't tell enough people how I feel
And there are those days that I am surrounded by people
But my heart feels so empty, and
I feel like I am truly alone

I would like to have someone to hug me
To tell me that every thing will be alright
Someone to wish me a good night

Sometimes I just wonder what is the reasoning behind it all
What is the purpose of this path I walk
The concept of an unknown destination
The search of finding someone, just so that you dont travel alone

I would like to just go home
To escape this reality
To pretend that this present was merely a dream

Sometimes I'd like to be that five year old girl
The one that accidentally put gum in her hair
The little girl with the constant smile on her face