another conversation between me and my consciousness

are you sure you want this?
no, not any more
then why are you acting like you do?
to be honest i'm not sure
I like to act on impulse
that's not always the best thing to do you know?
yes, i know. sometimes you've just got to let everything go.
what do you mean? i think that it makes you seem carelessly
i am careless, and i like to be worry free
i dont need problems, im sure that i already have plenty
so what is it that you want now
i told you already i dont know
it's silly to play games with your own heart
im in control
that's what you think, this is just a cycle, soon you'll see
you'll come back here crying, trust me
I've learned from my mistakes, i promise i wont let myself get too deep
you say that now, im warning you honey
figure out what you want
no i dont have to and you cant make me
what is it that you want?
i told you that i dont know
deep down i think you do know

two strangers

silly how some things happen to fall into place
or it may be that they had been misplaced

like two strangers watching movies on a late friday night
cuddling close, fingers intertwined
as if they've been lovers in previous lifetimes
perfectly comfortable in each other's company

candles lit, soft music plays
all alone, with locked doors
wine glasses filled to the rim

it'll mean nothing,
he has no intention of getting emotionally involved
she heals from a broken heart
its a game we all play

cold-heart as he has always portrayed himself to be
he feeds his own ego as he knows she needs him desperately

human nature, to get yours
as he gets his
pretend as though he loves you

look deep and past his eyes
take in his kisses and savor every last bite

what have you been pretending
to be what we aren't
what will never be
to have such emotion embedded inside of me

because when she kisses you
she kisses you so passionately
and when she loves you
she loves only you and gives herself completely

like two strangers everytime we meet
nestled in each others arms
she indulges in your embrace and shutters at having to part ways

for we only have this last night
as we say hello, simply to say goodbye again

to be continued...


i built you up with the little pieces that i knew
and i created the perfect being
I convinced myself that it was all real, i played make-believe

you are perfect, perfect for me
but im sitting here aching
aggravated and frustrated

im about to loose all that i thought was mine
after all these years, it'll come to an end
i'll be left alone, broken, these thoughts dont seem to go away

i'll play my records, listen to all your songs
as they became my songs, words softly spoken,
all along i thought you knew
but those lyrics never meant anything to you

and we really dont know each other like i thought we use to
we are really opposites and were bound to fight
and i'll burst and you'll remain composed
with a stern look upon you face

emotionless, expressionless, with nothing to say
you'll agree with my decision and simply walk away