It's hard to wake up every day
Looking to my right
It's all so empty
From one day to the next
I have to push it
Slowly getting up
Washing the tears from my face
The sink fills with water and it all goes down the drain
If only the ache would go away
If only I could sit still and blame someone else for my mistakes
If only I could find the girl I use to be
Just to pretend that this ugly girl wasn't me
Just so that I could be the stronger me
Some days I just want to rip out the broke pieces of me
Erase the memories from my mind,
Just make myself forget every thing that once made all of this so great
Just so that I wouldn't laugh and smile
I've been holding back my tears
Concealing my fears
Just for them to creep back into me when my guard is down
I wish I could just let the water run down the drain
For now, like before, I'll play pretend
_Nothing makes nonsense_
sometimes
there are nights when I cannot concentrate
there are mornings that I dont want to wake up
I would just like to stay in my bed, eyes closed
and lay mindlessly, and not worry
I would like to relax and give my heart a break
To have one day, one day where everything could just be okay
So much in such a little time has changed
And I feel like I constantly say this
And I feel like I want to be
The girl that I use to be
So innocent and naive
I would like to play in the dirt
And color outside the lines
And have my daddy tuck me in to sleep
And I feel that I don't tell enough people how I feel
And there are those days that I am surrounded by people
But my heart feels so empty, and
I feel like I am truly alone
I would like to have someone to hug me
To tell me that every thing will be alright
Someone to wish me a good night
Sometimes I just wonder what is the reasoning behind it all
What is the purpose of this path I walk
The concept of an unknown destination
The search of finding someone, just so that you dont travel alone
I would like to just go home
To escape this reality
To pretend that this present was merely a dream
Sometimes I'd like to be that five year old girl
The one that accidentally put gum in her hair
The little girl with the constant smile on her face
there are mornings that I dont want to wake up
I would just like to stay in my bed, eyes closed
and lay mindlessly, and not worry
I would like to relax and give my heart a break
To have one day, one day where everything could just be okay
So much in such a little time has changed
And I feel like I constantly say this
And I feel like I want to be
The girl that I use to be
So innocent and naive
I would like to play in the dirt
And color outside the lines
And have my daddy tuck me in to sleep
And I feel that I don't tell enough people how I feel
And there are those days that I am surrounded by people
But my heart feels so empty, and
I feel like I am truly alone
I would like to have someone to hug me
To tell me that every thing will be alright
Someone to wish me a good night
Sometimes I just wonder what is the reasoning behind it all
What is the purpose of this path I walk
The concept of an unknown destination
The search of finding someone, just so that you dont travel alone
I would like to just go home
To escape this reality
To pretend that this present was merely a dream
Sometimes I'd like to be that five year old girl
The one that accidentally put gum in her hair
The little girl with the constant smile on her face
and come to think about it
some of the things that I did were unnecessary
and i know that i drove you away
im still driving
down and around
my unknown destination
passenger seat empty
my music blaring loudly in my ears
I scream
laughter
tears
sometimes I wish someone would hold my hand
like you use to
I wish someone would laugh at my colorful nails and call me unique
we never knew where we were going
and we never cared to plan
yet we always got to where we needed to be
next to each other
and i know that i drove you away
im still driving
down and around
my unknown destination
passenger seat empty
my music blaring loudly in my ears
I scream
laughter
tears
sometimes I wish someone would hold my hand
like you use to
I wish someone would laugh at my colorful nails and call me unique
we never knew where we were going
and we never cared to plan
yet we always got to where we needed to be
next to each other
story of my life
there are nights, nights like these, a night like this one
when i want to sit down and write, write stories that would go down in history
tales of time and despair, heartache, heartbreak
There are a million pictures that i look at, filled with millions of words that i could write
The meanings of smiles, and places, a majestic time and land
A little girl's dreams that faded into the past
but on these same nights i am afraid
i am afraid of the words that will come alive on the page, this screen
and those that will read and interpret, misinterpret and confuse
confuse my intentions, the people that i write about
on nights like these, i wish the people in my writing didn't have faces, names, nor histories
i want them to all just be a big blur of memories
for i remember the good times that we had, and i cherish those the most you know
on nights like these, i wish i could write about the feel, the touch, the scent, the rush
that it all use to have, the excitement that goes through the body as you are about to
embark on an new adventure, to discover a hidden secret, or just to even share a moment for two
on nights like these i would like to take a drive, a drive down memory lane
down no particular path or place, no destination, i would just like my mind to wander
to write down the thoughts in my mind, blur the words and rhymes
to find peace of mind, who cares about time and space,
take me to the unknown, an unknown destination
our secret spot, where no one would find us and no one would care to look anyway
when i want to sit down and write, write stories that would go down in history
tales of time and despair, heartache, heartbreak
There are a million pictures that i look at, filled with millions of words that i could write
The meanings of smiles, and places, a majestic time and land
A little girl's dreams that faded into the past
but on these same nights i am afraid
i am afraid of the words that will come alive on the page, this screen
and those that will read and interpret, misinterpret and confuse
confuse my intentions, the people that i write about
on nights like these, i wish the people in my writing didn't have faces, names, nor histories
i want them to all just be a big blur of memories
for i remember the good times that we had, and i cherish those the most you know
on nights like these, i wish i could write about the feel, the touch, the scent, the rush
that it all use to have, the excitement that goes through the body as you are about to
embark on an new adventure, to discover a hidden secret, or just to even share a moment for two
on nights like these i would like to take a drive, a drive down memory lane
down no particular path or place, no destination, i would just like my mind to wander
to write down the thoughts in my mind, blur the words and rhymes
to find peace of mind, who cares about time and space,
take me to the unknown, an unknown destination
our secret spot, where no one would find us and no one would care to look anyway
Summer before Senior Year
three years have past me by
it's been a wonderful experience
and I have enjoyed every moment
the good and the bad
i am scared for what life has in store for me
but that is the purpose of this blog
this journey is an unknown destination
i follow a path, awaiting what i will discover
it's been a wonderful experience
and I have enjoyed every moment
the good and the bad
i am scared for what life has in store for me
but that is the purpose of this blog
this journey is an unknown destination
i follow a path, awaiting what i will discover
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