over exposed photograph

My thoughts
sometimes sound like they are being screamed out loud
more than words
more like a photograph
open to perception
and being exposed

That is only in my head
You can't read my mind
Not completely, no, not yet
Maybe just a little

I'm scared we will be too much
and I remind myself that this is only the beginning
The storm will calm
as soon as we are exposed

just please help me breathe a little
even die a little

turn down the lights
make my room feel and fill red
in a dark room hold me tight
make sure I am not over exposed

then bring me back to life
because I've been holding back for some time now
hiding my heart
you say you want to hold off giving your heart
for someone that deserves it
so don't wear your heart on your sleeve

Don't let us fall so easily
don't let me fight it off

I can see myself sneakily putting up walls
already
simply because I am afraid
to tell
to tell my story
and be exposed

no I know you won't run away with my stories nor my world
but rather the fear sets in that I will be exposed

and not on my own accord
and all my bad sides will show
like an over exposed photograph

just leave me as a negative instead

under the pretty face, lies so much more
lies, evil
lies so much more

So I've learned to believe
so I've conditioned myself to think
I'm usually the villain

truth be told maybe I am simply under exposed.