just sitting thinking about

i decided to eat some crab tonight
just because it reminded me of you
and then i made my version of neptune salad
still with the cubed pieces of tomatoes and onion
but don't worry the onion didn't make me teary eyed, no more than the thought of you


i wish i still had that notebook you bought me
you know the one with all the colors
and all the little things we would write each other
even though we only spent a few weekends apart during that time
that notebook lasted about five months
we were happy then
I wish i had it to remember all those little things i loved so much


i gave it too much thought today
you know our story
and how it never seems to end
even when it ends
it's like there is always a sequel
and things pick up all over again


and i think about how i will write our book
and where i'll pick up the story
you would think i'd start at the beginning
but then you've got to remember Ana Castillo
and her Mixquiahuala Letters
how every thing was out of order but in order at the same time
i want some one to pick up our love story and be able to read it in an 
infinite amount of ways and still understand the love
like a side wards 8


i want to be able to tell them about our different lives together
even the time you tried to be a little Chicano for me
but i was ok that that was just not you
i want them to know about the capitalized and lower case i/I
and how it made so much sense
just like us...
i was just sitting thinking about 


hopefully i'll be able to write our story just as beautifully as it happened