since I don't have work til 2pm.
just listening to some music
wishing (like everyone else) that I had more money to do fun stuff
I mean I am sure I can charge it
and be irresponsible with my debt that is already stacking up
but I'm not
cus I can't
I often forget that all I wanted were the simple things in life
The simple stuff became too complex
SO now it's actually pretty damn complicated as to all the things I want.
:)
I forget, about my number one passion
I get so caught up on the daily
And yes, I am always such a ranter and a broken record.
And I neglect that all I wanted was the ability to write and share
all the things that I think about
everything that I feel
the things that make me angry
or happy
or every emotion in the spectrum in between
I should have written a novel by now
But I keep those stories in my head
some days I feel like the past is yet too fresh
And my descriptions are a bit too detailed
I'm too critical
at times too arrogant
I mean really what have I done that is changing others
or impacting NOTHING
Is it time to hardcore focus on me
I have the urge to drop every thing.
throw every thing away.
start from nothing
move
where no one knows me
Maybe not tell anyone
just go missing
it'd be scary
it might be fun
I might end up dead
or learn to feel what it is to be alive
I am constantly looking for a change
because I need something to keep me going
I am the kind of person that looks forward to things
I need goals, dreams, I need to accomplish things
PROJECTS
Working in a vault of a place is def. not my style
How do I practice what I preach with such limitations
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