alone with my thoughts

I am suppose to be witing my personals statements for grad school, and here I am running in circles with my own thoughts.

It's as if I've already said it, what I want.

But how is it that I am gonna get there.

This whole corporate monster,

that changes the coporate world and how it targets American audiences

and ultimately changes society

Or at least my community 

Part of me just wants to be a writer or artist

Or just a researcher, or professor

An activist

I feel lost. 

I miss learning

about the world, cultures, societies, organizations, and how and why we function the way we do.

Maybe once I accomplish the "big dream"

I can back track and do the things I am passionate about

Most days, I just want to be covered in paint

or writing a book, but I get so distracted by my thoughts like,

wait, I shouldn't be doing this

I should be productive