hoy

and when I woke up today
it felt slightly different than yesterday
I got in my car and drove, wishing I could just drive away

with no destination, I found myself at a park
just like the ones that we have at home
only a little different
because home isn't home anymore

and as much as I want this to feel like home
it's not home
not so much anymore

it began to rain
when I woke up today, I wished things would have turned out differently
but the clouds came into play
the rain came pouring down, it's not the same

I drove around looking for a familiar place
I searched for a welcoming face
but it's just not the same as it use to be

and as of right now I'm feeling pretty empty
I can't help but want to give up
as much I hate to admit it
I need to break away

Sometimes I wish I kept my mouth closed
and that it hadn't been me
I wished that I hadn't made such a mess

I wanted to keep driving
I wanted to erase it all from my memory
I wish I would have walked away from it when it all began

That way I could have saved the friendship that I ruined
I wished I wouldn't have been the one to break your heart
We should have just stayed friends
I should have just walked away

I shouldn't have said things that I said
Because a girl sometimes needs friends to help her push until the end
and I know I'm selfish
and I never stopped loving him and I never will

He makes me the happiest girl in the world
I should have walked away
and waited just a little longer for my heart to mend

I tore yours in two
But I promise I didn't mean to
and things now are just not the same
and if I could I'd choose to remain friends

Things never turn out the way they are planned
I trusted you with everything
all of my feelings, thoughts, and mine and his memories

may be I drove you to that place of envy
and I wish you would have never tried to replace him
and I wish there was no such thing as jealousy

May be I shouldn't have said so much
I shouldn't have opened up
I shouldn't have ever let you believe that you could have my heart
When I had already given it away

and the tears keep on rolling down from my eyes
I know I lost one of my most trusted friends
and I know that it was my loss and that you are better off
I'm happy for you

no puedo enchuchar tu musica si llorar
y no puedo decir tu nombre sin pensar que te rompi el corazon